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| My grandmother has bone cancer. She's too kind and perfect and it's just....fuck.
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| It's all falling apart again and I try and I try to keep everything together, but everyone can't have it this hard. I'm proud of myself for being able to focus on an exam I had to take today, and did at least half well on it and got it finished, but why does God or whoever keep fucking with me right before I have to do stuff like that? Maybe it's not God, it's just bad luck, but then why cant God help me when I'm struggling like this? I thought the people around me were supposed to love me no matter what, but they don't. And I thought the good people in the world were supposed to be without struggle, but she's not and she deserves so much better. I know life isn't fair, but why are the good punished? And why am I ignored?
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| So you know what sucks? A kidney infection. You know what sucks worse? Being ignored by your boyfriend while you've got a kidney infection. There's way more I could say about that but I don't feel like crying.
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| Writing here on my brand new (to me) laptop my Dad surprised me with. Super excited for that, so I can get way more work done while at Mike's. I needed something good after the catastrophe on Tuesday. My hot water broke and the maintenance guys spent 7 hours trying to fix it. It ended with drywall all over the floor, a toilet brush on the sink next to all mine and Will's toiletries, and trash everywhere. It took forever to get them to come back and fix everything. Nice way to start the spring semester....
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| At least it's Blacksburg Christmas...
If it weren't for that, this would officially still be the crappiest time in the history of ever. No energy or drive to do anything, everyone making me 'go the extra mile' to make everything better, and to top it all off, there's still no damn snow. Mike and I just got in a fight, and it was really small, just stupid crap, but the problem is that we were trying to go to bed and he just picked a fight with me just to get a rise out of me. So now I can't sleep so I'm pouring my troubles into a fucking laptop and playing computer games, which I'll regret in the morning, because besides being without sleep, I'm also without my glasses which is gonna bring on one hell of a migraine.
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